Joan's Goodbye Letter

Dear Everybody:

I was not a successful case. I love you all a great deal. I'm letting go. I hope I don't go out shrieking and moaning. But I'm going out very soon. I hope it's not odiously painful, these last few hours, but I want you to know how much I love you all. I hope I didn't disappoint you too much.

It's been a great life. I wish I had more time with all of you. Don't let him choose as unsuccessfully as my father or his. I wish him a great life, too, because I never adored anybody more. I love Claudia and Lynn a great, great deal. They made me very happy. And don't let him cry too much because he meant a whole lot to me.

The adoration of my life is my fabulously wonderful daughters and my granddaughter and I wouldn't have missed that for the world. Julie, have as good a marriage as Rebecca and Dean, please. You're coming on great times all of you. Allanna, I'll miss a great portion of my life by not being there to share it with you, which I'll be very sorry to lose.

I wish this didn't have to happen so early. Maybe it won't happen, but I don't believe it.

They say nobody's indispensible, but they say how much they see me in their houses every day so maybe not everybody is indispensible. I'm happy for that. I'm happy to be able to offer that to people. My secretary here has been fabulous in reminding me of that.

Although I've never thought of myself as a spiritual person, the hiking has been a very important and spiritual portion of my life. Bryce, Zion, hiking with Julie. I'm glad I can share that with Rebecca since I've made the funeral urn in which my ashes can be mixed with your father's and shared. That will be good for him, too. The hiking was the inspiration for some of my pots. It was inspired by underwater diving, that series I did from under water in St. Croix. The file fish. I did an exhibit based on those pots at the Jewish Museum. Jackie Melissas and Dotty Patrick were two of my most important friends and colleagues, particularly the time we spent rakuing together.

And so goodbye. I love you all.